Kill Dave (Vol 1)

my life is brilliant. my love is pure.
i saw an angel, of that i'm sure.
she smiled at me on the subway. she was with another man.
but I won't lose no sleep on that, cause i've got a plan

yeah, she caught my eye as we walked on by.
she could see from my face that i was fucking high,
and i don't think that I'll see her again,
but we shared a moment that will last till the end.

you're beautiful. you're beautiful.
you're beautiful, it's true.
i saw your face in a crowded place,
and i don't know what to do,
cause i'll never be with you.

there must be an angel with a smile on her face,
when she thought up that i should be with you.
but it's time to face the truth,
i will never be with you.

i said somedays i feel like shit.
somedays, i want to quit and just be normal for a bit
i don't understand why you always have to be gone
i get along but the days always feel so long.
and i find myself trying to stay by the phone
cause your voice always makes me not feel so alone
but i feel like an idiot working my day aroud a call
but when i call you i don't have much to say
i find myself just filling my time
with anything to keep the thought of you from my mind
and i'm going fine, i'm planning to keep it that way
and i'll call you when i feel i've got something to say
and i'll tell you, i want you to know it's a little fucked up
that i'm stuck here waiting, that i've had it with you
tired of hating and making these excuses for why you're not around
it seems one thing's been true all along
you don't really know what you've got til it's gone

where'd you go? i miss you so.
seems like it's been forever since you've been gone.

perhaps i was blind to the facts, stabbed in the back
couldn't trust my own homies just a bunch of dirty rats
will i succeed, paranoid from the weed
and hocus pocus try to focus but I can't see
and in my mind I'm a blind man doing time
look to my future cause my past is all behind me
is it a crime to fight for what is mine?
everybody's dying to tell me what's the use of trying
i can't lie, ain't no love for the other side
jealousy inside, make them wish i died
oh my lord, tell me what i'm living for
everybody's dropping got me knocking on heaven's door

I used to say I never met a girl like you before
Still ain't got a fuckin clue as to who you truly are
Now I just feel stupid for the loop that you threw me for
Can't believe I almost flew the coop for some stupid whore
You used to say all you wanted was for me to be yours
All I ever wanted from you was a few booty calls
If you recall I used to treat you like a groupie broad
When we fucked, I refused to even take my jewelry off
But it threw me off the first time I called and you blew me off
It was a shock, it struck me as odd, but it turned me on
You started gettin moody on me, pretty soon we'd argue
And the ruder you got, the more beautiful you got to me
And would've even knew that, who would've even thought possibly
Cupid could shoot another one of them God damned darts at me
It's true that I got shot in the heart
But when someone seems too good to be true, they usually are
But see, when you're in it it's too hard to see
Til you pull up and see some other dude's car parked and reach
Up under the seat as your heart starts to beat
Before you make a decision that's life altering
And just as you halt and you turn and you start to leave
You hear them words echoing, almost haunting, that taunting ring

so shit's changed, huh?
you've got a phone.
pick it up.
call me.

we seemed so young, so full of life and vibrant
side by side, wherever you was riding i went
so close, almost on some bonnie and clyde shit
when p & j died, i was right by your side
with a shoulder to cry on, a tissue to wipe your eyes
and a bucket to catch every tear you cried inside it
you even had the same type of childhood i did
sometimes i want to know why all the nonsense came, i thought we survived it
you went to school, i 9 to 5'ed it
we grew up, grew apart as time went by us
then it blew up to both yours and my surprises.
and now i feel a vibe, i just can't describe it
as much as you might try to hide it
it's cold, your vibe is like ice, i can sense it
and i don't like it

how come we don't even talk no more?
and you don't even call no more.
we don't barely keep in touch at all
nd i don't even feel the same love no more.
and i even get this feeling we might be beefing now
after all this time that we've been down
ain't no way no how this bullshit can be true
we family, ain't a damn thing changed
unless it's you

just so you know, dallas rocked...

i also put up a webpage of some of my art work which i'll try to update as often as possible.

http://davewkim.deviantart.com

let me know what yous guys thinks.

and i used bad grammar on purpose.

so my portfolio is now done... complete with copies. odd thing about copies though, i made over 250 copies of my work to format correctly and what not at kinko's last night and tonight. in any case, i threw most of them away since they were bad copies. at least, i thought i threw them away. i'm at kinko's tonight and got a call from someone i'd never met before complimenting my work. while it's nice to have a fan, it's scary to have stalkers.

in a few hours, my laptop will be here.
word.

And all I
Need to know
Is that I'm somethin you'll be missin
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that far

portfolio update:
1 page left

word to your mother.

if i happen to go missing for the next month, it's because i don't want to see you. actually, it's because i've got to work on my portfolio which i'll be submitting to a few different companies... and also because i don't want to see you.

a good friend will bail you out of jail.
a true friend will be sitting next to you saying "damn, we fucked up."